ladidah

god today was such a heap of shit.
sick, so i stayed home.
actually, besides all the writhing in pain, today wasnt so bad,
(the sleeping part)
i had lots of interesting dreams.
one was where i ran away for a day, down to the beach and everything was all warped and had a sort of saphire tint.
i was squelching along, in the mud because right near the shore it was all thick and muddy
and the sea started getting more and more seaweed in it until it was a crappy dark green colour and then i was in the city for some reason with friends.
but yeah. anyway,
possibly getting a keyborad soon.
which i am very excited about. I'd love to be able to play really beautifully. I'm going to practise tonns.
:D bye

Today,

another boring day, so i tried to make it different. didnt work. went to KFC with some friends, we got beeped with a wolf whistle horn thing by some dick. before going home i decided to go on a walk around the block, got beeped again, by a quite frightening lad this time, and my shoes all soggy, uncomfortably warm.
so when i got back home again, decided to do another round since i had about an hour since i had to be home. took my shoes off and crossed the road tonns for some reason. then did 5 rounds on the roundabout to confuse the cars, which i did.
smiled at the guy next door that i didnt know existed before today. he was playing with his dog in the spare block.
worryingly, i sort of love this guy... (not the one next door). i cant get over him. i never will. i dont know what to do.
a friend continues to be a bitch. will never change.
they only get two sentences see?
another friend is one of the most brilliant person i have ever met. i like having intelligent conversations with her even though i never have much to contribute.
another friend is pissing the crap out of me.
finally got some jumpers. even though they are probably about a couple of mm thin, actually maybe just one, its still good not to be shaking my ass off at school.
it is very much decided that i cant stay here for long.
its doing my head in.
i dont know when i'll build up enough courage to leave; probably never will, the way i am.
I miss my other three friends. one of them probably unhealthily.
havent drank in ages, i hope not to too much. its not worth the hangover. and its defiantely not cool, as many people think.
annoyed at people who pretend to act drunk. if you ever read this, everyone can clearly tell it's an act and im surprised you havent notised.
bye .

when i find you i shall kick your smile

self fucking explanatory.
just grow up.

words that are on my mind right now

trust
honesty
lonely
freedom
homer hudson
night
elanor
friends
love
bind
random
hot
guys
law
paint
heart
waves
zinc
blister
tree
apricot
sandal
tandoori
outdoors
animals
fur
olives
words
dad
pencil
interesting
idea
worth
plank
fish
camping
whore
stripes
death
blood
guts
orange
oranges
red
blue
green
door
yellow
molly
moilly
cup
sausage
lantern
cellar
pineapple
harsh
carpet
feet
lovely
candle


I'm going to stop there because i will go on forever, and candle is a nice word.

luck. chance etc.

i think that it seems everything has a dead end.
like, whenever im trying to figure something out, the answer is in another question, which is in another and then another until i get to a dead end.
i think its the way people have been trained from birth to look for answers, and analyse almost everything.
and i think that is stupid.
humans are so stupid.

pepd boringness

blehhhhhhh am boreed to complete death plus seven and just want to go to greensy and get stuff and not go to aths day because cbf and want to find a picture of random hot guy on julia's computer next to me and dont want to finish assignment.
mr argall is maybe coming to kill with death.
boring mens.
and mens panties.
justine in photo
people people people.
school photo man is a pervert.
buhbye

Zoe's mind-thoughts

again

teehee

well, i have sort of figured it out.

and thank god because its been bugging me.

so .

I dont actually fancy anyone at the moment.

like, properly.

i have a tiny crush on two though :S

which kind of pisses me off.

it'd be good to just have one that i really like who i may have some sort of chance with.

but i'll work on it.

in fact,

i met the most brilliant guy ever in the middle of nowhere.

never see him again.

now im just rambling.

cos i cant talk about things that matter.

but man, these two are fucking hot.

i could explain them but i cant.

sick of petty arguments

point is,

i need to listen to the ocean.

the actual ocean, and the band

to catherine who will probably never read this but eh- we should go to greensy soon ;)

im fucking bored.

need some pringles

but ive eaten half the world today.

ohhh erghhh im gonna go do something else pointless.

give anyone (a.k.a no one) who is reading this a break from my crap.

except that you havent even got this far because of how boring it is.

buhbye >:l